May he take all my kingdoms from me if it is his will. His will shall always prevail!  I want to be a vessel that God works through! My trust and care is in the Lord.

 

In Joyce Lain Kennedy’s words,

“Being cut loose was a blessing in disguise. Now I have an opportunity to explore jobs that better suit my qualifications and interests.”

 I’ll be quite honest. Much of my stress and worry has been about how to balance home life and work life. I was stressed about work and communication conflicts. I never felt I had enough hours in my day to accomplish all the tasks I had set for myself.

Let’s examine, In  September 2006 I stepped down from my role as Team Lead for Target Corp. so that I could focus more on the needs I had at home (i.e. Starting up a new business with my fiance, Volunteering [my passion], and assisting my fiance with his medical needs). I accepted an offer to transfer to a “less stress” job as a Fraud Associate. I reported to a wonderful, caring, and kind Team Lead (also it’s important to note this person was also a Christian). Her manager hired me and said we’d make a great team. She was right, this Lead demonstrated compassion and understood my needs.  In turn received 110% from me. I was eagar to volunteer for projects, ready to lend a helping hand, excited to pitch my ideas, and offer my creative insight on potential roadblocks on the goals and strategies.

So what happened? Well, the hiring manager was promoted  and replaced by a “shaker.” A re-org shuffle took place and I was swept under a reporting relationship that became very toxic very quickly. My positive attitude started to consume negative energy and became a breeding ground for darkness. I became bitter. It took about 6 months before I was able to muster up the strength to turn my attitude around. I started to pray to God to show me how to handle the situation I was in.

I received confirmation of his answer while attending a Diversity Council meeting where speakers were often brought in to share their experiences and unique perspectives on diversity topics. I had never attended before, but decided to check it out that day. Help from a fellow christian friend sealed the deal when she stated she would be attending. So, I went! The speaker spoke about attitude. He displayed an enthusiasm for life and his career that I remember once having. Then, during his presentation he used the quote “We choose the thoughts we allow to dominate our lives.”

Well, from that point I chose to ask God for his help in choosing my thoughts. I wanted to live my life in the rthym of Jesus. You can pick up this story from my very first blog post. The rest of this blog is my journey…

I have been through some ups and downs in this life but I will always proclaim that my strength and hope come from Jesus Christ!